Well, not really nigh but I'm definitely on the downslide. Most of the time these days I feel tired, fat, unattractive and depressed. (Isn't this a cheery note?) In some ways this time in life (meaning "the change" will soon be upon me) feels almost like the 7 stages of grief...denial, pain, anger, depression, the upward turn, reconstruction and ultimately, acceptance. In my case, I've already experienced the denial, the pain (or fear), I've been totally pissed off and now I'm at the depression stage. All this and the big event isn't even here yet. I'm really hoping that once menopause is here and over I'll get a new lease on life. As it stands now, I'm glad I have a dog so I can go kick her once in awhile (kidding, of course!)But as it stands now, I feel like I go through most days in a fog. I'm forgetting even the most simple words, can't hold a thought for even a few moments. It's like my brain is swimming in a toxic chemical soup. It's really quite disconcerting....I've always been so sharp and focussed.
If anyone has any suggestions for helping me get through this, I'd be happy to hear them.
Yeah, I have a suggestion. It worked for me during the last 10 of my 81 years. I told myself it doesn't matter so much what I think about life and events. It's what I am.
ReplyDeleteWhat you are is lucky. And if you get past this moment, you'll stay lucky.
That other door won't open unless you close this one.
Love,
Unca John